Its been 63 days since I stopped being a runner. With today being Easter it reminds me that it has been longer than Lent ! I didn’t come up with something to give up, so God made that decision for me- no running! Lent has just ended but unfortunately my penance is still continuing. My hip injury is still a faint reminder when I give into my urge to “run”- 20 feet from my car into the house or a few steps to chase the kids at the park. It is better but not to the point of being able to handle 20 excess pounds mostly in my protruding belly while coming back from a probable hip stress fracture. I don’t feel like risking it if it could cause any more delays in recovery.
My hope comes from other women who are dominating post-pregnancy. Most notable is Carrie Dimoff. It was less than a year ago I was doing easy runs with her as she was nearing her due date. I saw her at club xc when she was base training. I raced 13 weeks pregnant and happened to have a better day than her. Fast forward to this weekend she comes back with a 15:46 5k on the track! Amazing!!!!!!!!!!!! In one year if I could run a 5k a minute slower I will be happy 🙂
In another countdown, I have reached 75 days til my estimated due date.. so maybe another 25 days after birth to a slow return back into running? Does today mark my 100 days until my return? Is July 17 a reasonable date to look forward to?? All who know the future please say yes.
With nothing to athletically look forward to on the calendar anytime soon, I have a new goal – to have a natural birth and kick ass during the process (is that a realistic thought?) I know many people aspire to this being fully prepared and when the day comes there’s nothing they can do and surgery is the result. I’m aware of this but my hope is I won’t be in that category. I also know I have never given birth and experienced women reading this might laugh and think I have no idea what I’m talking about.
Recently Alan and I changed our plans from the hospital to a new facility called the Birthing Place. I’m really looking forward to the challenge and not afraid of any potential (severe) pain. I’m actually craving something that will push me..(but hopefully not over the edge). That’s why I race. I crave physical challenges and pushing limits. I trust in my body that women are designed for birth, so I’m going to work with it and accept the “pain” that comes and know its leading to something awesome! Better than a PR.. A new mini human!
Looking back to when I was training for my first marathon and attempt to run a Trials qualifier in 2009, I was actually much more anxious and nervous about facing the event than I am to this birth. I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to push hard enough through the pain after months of training to get my body to achieve my goal. With pregnancy I know the contractions will not be a choice- they will come and I will deal with it.
Running is a voluntary process and if you start to psych yourself out you slow down and regret it later. To my knowledge birth does not give you this option. (Exception my midwife told me of a woman who ended up with complications because she kept having a glass of wine to prolong the labor in the week she was overdue because she was so afraid of facing the birth process).
Well I never did get to run my marathon after I contracted Lyme Disease a month prior, so I’ll never know if it compares to childbirth. If I get lucky in the physical category of labor – great. But secretly I want a long, physically grueling endurance event that eventually ends in a victory (with no drugs or surgery). That way I can have a more renewed, fearless mindset going into races. When I’m tempted to give into pain I can look back knowing if I survived the marathon of childbirth, I can do anything for one more mile.